I want to become active.

This is after my first and so-far, only, hike of the famous “Y” Mountain. Kent, my husband (boyfriend at the time), is in the picture with me. I feel myself when I exercise and I am able to do hard things physically. There is a fear inside of me of failure. I am scared that if I start going to the gym, I’m going to stop sometime. This keeps me away from all things active. This affects my communication style because I cannot see the end of the road for my “health” so I stop trying to face the challenge of becoming healthy. I should know by now that results are not everything. I need to take care of my body and keep everything active. I get really stressed when people talk or ask me to go to the gym. I can come up with 100 other things to do, when in reality it’s the one thing I need. I can improve my self-esteem by going to the gym and not thinking about results or other things I could be doing. I need to go for me to boost my confident and self-esteem. This hike of the Y was definitely a test of how far I can go and push myself. I was able to make it all the way to the tip of the Y - which was the hardest route. My body is capable, I just need to begin and help it get better.